August 9, 1996
Well. I have had it with PageMill 2.0 The thing makes it very hard to work with formatting. It makes things centered or not according to it's own plans. %*(@ it. It is infuriating. I need to also submit another report to Adobe on the way it keeps highlighting going after a selection.
It's 2:06AM and I can't sleep. Getting all psyched up to move and drive cross country. Requires drive and clarity. It is a long drive. Also, taking some decongestants to keep my nasal passages draining and I think the pseudo-phedrine is making me crazy. Oh well...
Meg and Jack are visiting for a few days. They went to the Aquarium yesterday and are going to Opryland today. Will be back and then we're having dinner at Dad and Virginia's after that. Brian will have his daughter's there. It's good to see them here and have some time to yak. Doesn't happen very often. Need to take the time to appreciate it as much as possible. Do you get on well with your siblings?
Got Stevie Nicks on the CD. Street Angel. Not her best work but oh well. Hard to believe she is 48. Time passes. And kicks our asses as it does.
Got no idea what is to happen in Washington. Only that I will be back where I think I belong and will try to make my life there. If God wills it. Whatever God wills.
I'm feeling very alone right about now. The weight of the evening, the closeness of having people around when I have been alone and the nearness of departure are all conspiring me to grow inward. I have no desire to interact. I want to leave and get this over with. I want to get into an apartment and get a sense of stability back that I hadn't had for over 3 years. I can't even remember what it is like. I didn't have it at the Mount. I guess that is why I didn't stay. I wasn't supposed to or else I would have felt secure and at peace. I felt at home but not at peace.
Even if no one ever reads this or responds, at least I know that I have written it and it matters more to have stated this than to have let it sit and fester. No matter how strange it is. I wonder if this site has caused me not to get a job or is it things I said and did years earlier. Hmmmm....is that what it is K? Or is it someone else I have pissed off over the years. Well, if that is the case, then that is my karma and I will accept it. That which does not kill us makes us stronger.
Poor Stevie. Saw some pics of here at a small concert in St. Petersburg. She is very large, but the attendees said she sang as well as she ever did. I hope she is happy. "Sadder still to watch it die then never to have never known it...."
Just cut to Claris Home Page. Not. It doesn't seem to recognize column width settings. You can only change the entire tables column settings. Crap. Well, hopefully, PageMill 2.0 will get it together. probably be a 2.0.2 release like 1.0.2. If that's what it takes.
Just realized that this CD, Street Angel, while not only sounding a lot like her other solo projects, sounds one hell of a lot like her and Lindsey Buckingham. She must miss him or she hasn't moved on from that sound. Kicks your heart I tell ya....
Found my darts! Can't wait to get back into a league and get back into getting out and being with people. It's almost like I've been in prison. I have been so quiet for so long I can't remember what it is like to be out and laughing. To be with......ahhhhh, that would be telling wouldn't it?
Well, I'm going to log on and post this and check out some things. Ya'll be cool and don't forget to treasure your days here. You never know when one might be your last. Don't forget to look back and remember your friends, and not to lose touch with them. Don't forget to love.
Well, well, well...finally back after a hellish night. Didn't get to bed or sleep last night until 5 or 5:30. Then got up with Meg and Jack and their brood. Now 10:05A. Will be crawling back into oblivion soon. Just wanted to get on this and update. They went to Opryland (why we don't know) so they won't be back until 6 or 7.
Will go over and work with Dad on his System. Installing PM 2.0 Beta to see how his system handles it. He has got 48MB's so it should work okay. However, it is his system so one never knows. He has more trouble than any 5 people I have worked with. I think it is because he is not interested in the technology, just getting the work done. Damn, that's scary. Someone not enthralled by the Technology of our age. I wonder what the weather is like on his planet.
Got an email from Catmother yesterday. She says she has relatives visiting as well. Probably be Monday before I leave here anyway. Mike Austin wants some help, or advice, or both on his system. He got his RAM but he still has a Color Classic and that is going to kill him in the future. He just needs a ballsier system. Something with oomph. Catmother says her 'puter died again this week or last. The thing is cursed, junk or both. Good riddance. Hopefully they can get the local company to get the ma new one. Problem with local companies. Too small to give new machines.
Went working on calendars with PM 2.0. Not too shabby. The new interface takes a bit getting used to, especially the <P> vs. <BR> deal. But, I seem to be getting the hang of how they have implemented it. I hope they bring back the transparency tool in the photo editing box. Which, by the way, I don't think they improved upon. In fact, it looks like they really goofed it up. Don't like the way it looks now. Shabby.
Drew
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