December 11, 1996
"No quote today"
Damn! I have been busy as hell!!!
We have gone through a major program replan and the last two weeks are a blur. Other than eating and sleeping, all I do revolves around the Minas Morgul building I work in. Sheesh!
I'm doing pretty good with the Zoloft these days. Doesn't make me as sleepy as it used to. Course, I jump another 25mg tomorrow to 100mg and hopefully level there for a while. Hello nausea and dizziness and wooziness and sleepiness and sleeplessness for another couple of days till I adjust to that level. Still and all, better than being depressed unto death.
Don't know what to do with myself over the Christmas holidays. I need to get out somewhere but I don't know where to go. No one to do it with anyways so maybe I'll just explore the Cascades....I can hear Vancouver's restaraunts calling...I have this bad Creme Brulee habit...the last good one I had was in Vancouver about 6 years ago....
I really have nothing to write. I still have some issues to work out in therapy. Things like self-worth, lingering destructive thoughts (can't tell whether they are thought habits or real thoughts), how to have a life and what does that mean anyway. Kinda like developing life patterns most people develop earlier. I never thought I'd be around this long so never worried about it....or was worrying about something else... :-) I kinda feel like I've been in a coma for 20 years and have woken up to a totally new and different life. This is a very real analogy.
Been branching out and making more contacts on the web and among the other diarists. Ya'll are some upfront very nice people! Pat your pointy little haids for me will ya??!?!?!?!! It's a pleasure gettin to know ya!
Well, I gotta finish my regurgiburger, fried something and shot 'o 'ffeino afore it gets more tasteless...
I truly wish you all the very best and warmies and huggies and furry, fuzzy monster feet!!!!!!
Drew
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