March 17, 1997
"I'm Back in the saddle again...."
Sooooo.....
From 30 December 1996 to the end of February I was in 4 psych wards...not fun. I even got involuntarily committed by the state of Washington for making self-destructive statements. While I was in there I realized that I really couldn't look to others for my health, but that I needed to find it within. The only way I could realize that was to have found the right dosage of anti-depressant. Which I have. Finally!!!!!!
I am now on 150mg of Effexor and 250mg of Depakote. I feel great. Have felt this way since the end of February and I'm getting used to it. It's nice.
I am dating a woman named Colette. We're planning to move in together in 2 months or less. Things are looking up. Hell. I even managed to put up a new calendar for 1997...only took three months to get around to it. Didn't think I'd be around...but I AM!!!!! :-)
My 'puter jones has subsided one hell of a lot...met one hell of a bunch of nice people lately thru the net. Manda, Tom, Niel, Nicole---Howdy to ya!!!
Since I got my brain chemistry working right, I don't spend as much time on the web. In fact, these days all I do is turn on and check mail. There is nothing out there that holds my attention. I do CNN, mindspace, and the occasional peek at some Gillian Anderson sites...but that's about it. Living a life and falling in love are taking up a lot of my attention. Hell...I don't even leave the Girls playing for hours like I used to. My oh my...
Since I worked last, my program (747-500/-600) was cancelled. Am now working on the 767-400EXR program doing the same thing. Program Management. I think I want a new career. Been doing this for over a decade and I would like to produce a product instead of tracking others progress. At least I'm employed and Boeing has been great with med leaves and helping me out. What a great company....
Who do you work for??
So...let's see....Mac clone prices are down tremendously, memory is on the floor. Apple is stepping on it's poncho by cancelling OpenTransport, Intercon was bought by Ascend (which leaves tcpConnect4, which I like, in limbo), Claris gave away Emailer 1.1v3 (thanks Claris), I have 3 people who only want me to come over so I can get them off AOL and onto an ISP, a place to live that is a good safe house for ex-Chzech spies on the run from homicidal ex-Staszi agents or to transfer stolen missile guidance secrets but as an apartment is a disaster, a brain that finally works, a love, a new Queen sized futon!!, one broken electric that needs to be fixed (no...I did NOT Pete Townsend it....).
Hmmmm....what else??? I'm about to run out of money cause my med disability doesn't start till mid-April (I don't even want to go THERE again...) so I'm going to have to go back to work earlier than expected (am on 90 day med leave) which is okay. I've been working on life management things like eating 3 times a day, going to bed at a normal time, getting exercise. Things most people learn early but I did not.
Man...Open Pages has really grown. When I first signed up, I was number 42. Now I am gonna be something like number 100 or something. I left Open Pages and have missed it since I was gone. I missed the feeling that I needed to put up a new entry every so often cause this caused me to sit down and write. Which for me is good. But, I also get out more so I have less time to do this. I dunno...I can share some of the Cognitive / Behavioral stuff I am working on. Wa hoo....such interesting things now....
Downloading Netscape Communicator Preview Release 2 and at 9200+K, it's huge. I didn't like Navigator 3.01 so I wonder what this is going to look like. Net Gold was a pig...I hope this is better. I'm happy using Nav 2.02 thank you very much. Uh oh...when I get to talking about browsers, it means I've run out of things to say...so I'll say goodbye.
Be Joyous!
Drew
<Ranting like a Sum'Bitch>
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