November 13, 1997 What's New Welll...had the Police at my hooch on Tuesday. Seems someone I emailed thought I was getting a little squirrely, and decided she should give them a call. I did not appreciate that. I'm having enough trouble coping with what I have without adding unexpected visitors into the mix. Especially, the kind of visitors who can haul you off to a fun filled excursion courtesy of the state. At least I got to see a familiar face. One of the officers, a female, was the one who had hauled me off to my last party. She did remember me about the time they got ready to leave. They asked me if I had a gun. I said no. They asked me if I was planning on getting one. I said no. I reminded her that since she had hauled me off and I got committed, I couldn't purchase a gun. Thanks for that hon. I'm sure she thinks she done right. I got cat hair all over my monitor. With the sun reflecting off it (yes, unbelievable as it sounds, we've had sun for the last 4 days!) it becomes almost impossible to read. I guess I could clean it.... Just write me off as a whiner. What's On My Mind My mental state. I haven't been in to work since Monday. I can't get it together. I don't know if I should go to the hospital or not. They can't do anything for me there and I'm not suicidal. I don't feel like getting my brain baked 7 times a day like the last time. Anyway, I have to get it together or I'm not going to be living indoors much longer. Lack of energy. Lack of will. Extreme fatigue. I get up for an hour or two and then am back in bed for 3-4 hours. That sucks. Maybe I'll stay up all night tonight and slug my way in tomm and see what trouble I can get into. Got a notice from my buddies at the Postal Office and it said they are hiring. Oh yeah right. Did you know that Postal workers rate 3rd in the nation for on the job stress? Gee, I wonder why... I bought Hill's Brothers coffee instead of Yuban. Yech. Now I have two huge cans of this stuff to drink through. not making it. — Coffee with Oreo's...and a smoke :-) — Copyright ©1996, 1997 A.T.Green. All Rights Reserved.