November 14, 1997 What's New I just might make it. Lust is so hard. Do you know IBM? Well duh right? Do you know their keyboards? Do you lust for one as I do? Do you have a clue what I'm talking about? I do. And that's what counts. I want this clearance Aptiva machine. It's black. With IBM's typically silky keyboard. I've used Apple's keyboards now for almost two years and this IBM is the nearest thing to keyboard sex that keyboards get. Everyone else's keyboards feel like shit compared to this thing. And the design? Well, it's just slick. The monitor sits on a stand, below that is a keyboard shelf, below that is the small box containing a pop-up CD-ROM and floppy. Now, this would not ordinarily amount to jack shit, but it is a Windows machine I'm talking about here. Aaaach. Putooh! But, it's a 17" monitor, the box has 32MB RAM and a 4.0GB disk. It's a fast 'chine. I want it. Just to have this thing. I may just. The suck part of it is this. I went into the store and tried to get them to raise my credit ceiling. They wouldn't do it. That sucks. Gotta have the account six months they sez. That sucks. I want that machine now. 'Course, if it became my main squeeze (which it would), I'd have to trade my Ricochet modem in for a Windoze Ricochet modem or get an adapter. But then I could run NetObjects Fusion, have all that space with that orgasmically huge monitor....be still my foolish heart. IBM hit a home run with that design I tell ya. I like it. And I don't like things Windoze neither. What's On My Mind Spoke to the bro. It was good. He amazingly called me last weekend. I was surprised. He said he will call this weekend. I will be even more surprised. Any minute now I expect John Wayne to walk the Earth. That is how history making that would be. Two weekends in a row. Rapture. Rapture's coming. I woke up at 2.30A again. This time it wasn't the Zoot. This time it was me. I have heartburn that is really hurting me. No shit. This is painful stuff. I ate half a bag of Oreo's yesterday and they are claiming their revenge on me. It really hurts. Did I mention it hurts? Thought so. It hurts. I am in debt. I owe, conservatively, $24,000. Car, motorcycle and credit card. Is this manic-depressive spending? Not really. The car, well, everyone owes for a car right? The moto? Well, I need a hobby right? The card? Well, I needed to live whilst I wasn't getting paid this spring right? Anyway, it can add up on ya no lie. Not to mention the assorted medical leeches and pschiatric blood-suckers who worm their way into my bank account on a monthly basis. And yet, I could still find it in my heart to welcome another interest rate into the fold. For you have to experience this thing first-hand to know whereof I speak. It's a nice machine. After running a 33Mhz machine now for over two years, I think I could switch to a 233Mhz machine for another two years. You think? You really think I could don't you? I want it. Gotta have it. Which is why I have to stick around. I need to get back to work so I can pay off or down my credit card and buy that thing!!!!! Before some schmuck buys it for his kid to play Doom on. God save us from Duke Nukem!! I can do things on it!! I will put up pages that will make Zeus himself shake his head in disbelief!!! Some snot nosed punk will only download naughty pics of chicks from AOL with it and bitch about the shitty keyboard. It's too sad. I'm tired now. Heartburn almost neutralized. But, it's 3.43A and I get up at 4.15A. Might as well stay up. Make some java and read Dr. Kay Redfield Jamison's An Unquiet Mind. It's about being bi-polar. She's a shrink who was crazy and now is not. Bear's absolutely no resemblance to my life other than I am crazy. Life. Go figure. a lustful soul. — Coffee (brewing)... — Copyright ©1996, 1997 A.T.Green. All Rights Reserved.